In other words. Fuck.
The injury was nobody else's fault but mine and that's where the self guilt and depression comes from suppose.
I'm slowly getting over the fact that I'm a partial handicap cat. At times, walking just feels plain awkward and painful. Let's not be hurt to the point that surgery is needed aight?
There's "tons" of musical homework that I need to tend to (Collabs, albums etc.) so why don't I just do them? The feeling isn't there to do mass amounts of music anymore BUT, creativity does come fairly randomly and I could be recording today as far as I know. Basically saying that I honestly do not know when I will create. It just sorta happens.
In other news.....I went diggin over the weekend. I don't know why or how but I always seem to find the very record that I'm set to look for. I was playing exotic sounds on my phone all last week and boom! Few minutes of diggin and I find it. It's always like that.
So yea my soundcloud updates are few are far inbetween but I'm the only gonzo still doing it in actuality. I talk to the homies and the associates and everyone is on standby. Creative pause mode lol. Nothing against them and nothing against their legit reasons for non creation of music.
Let's face it though. Maedali is the only one still giving you consistent lyrical content and/or Grimey toilet bowl beats.
That's as far as gonzo family is concerned.