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Tuesday, April 12, 2016

Damn yo. I'm still on strike from music. While I'm actually over the fact of losing what I lost, the actual inspiration to make sounds is gone. Can't lie though. I wonder what month of Mae woulda sounded like. I was In a groove....like 5 songs in and they were all very full of expression. 

Last joint before the hd crashed was heat. The writtens are somewhere in the garage and one day I will have to record em again. Those cuts I talked about where I found the groove. I put those on audiomack. 


That's the site I'm using on the down low. For when Soundcloud takes its final shit. 

As a creator that has lost something. Can't the creator simply make more of what has been lost? 


Wednesday, April 6, 2016

Read countless paragraphs on how the passport is not save(able)

I'm over it yo.

The homie Pete said dilla lost his works to a flood back in the day. Granted I'm not as strong as dilla. Still made me feel a tad bit better.

I still think a break is needed though.

I need to get back to cycling full time anyways.

I was getting a little soft. Just a little

Tuesday, April 5, 2016

I'm fucking done with music for now. I can't handle this sort of disaster time in and time out. First the Mac crashes. I lose my files. Next I buy an external hd. Start to make new beats and songs. Then the fucking cat jumps on the cpu, makes the hd fall to the floor and makes the fucker break. Now I have no files once again. I cannot keep dealing with this sort of failure and I quit. No month of Mae. Fuck it. I don't care. I'm done trying yo. Everytime I get something going with music lately. This bullshit happens. I am done.

Monday, April 4, 2016

It’s often said that there’s a very thin line between genius and madness. But more and more evidence seems to indicate that maybe there’s no line between the two at all. Or if there is, it’s a very thin line that many of the world’s brightest minds have crossed over.

Studies have shown that there is a strong link between creative genius and mental illness. As it turns out, creative individuals have a higher rate of manic depression (bipolar disorder) than the general population. New research also indicates that creative minds in all different areas may have traits associated with psychosis.

Need proof? Take a look at these 5 geniuses who were also mentally ill.

1. John Forbes Nash—In 1994, John Forbes Nash won the Nobel Prize in Economic Science. The American mathematician has put forth theories that are used in everything from market economics to politics and military theory. You may recall that Nash was the subject of the Academy Award winning film A Beautiful Mind.

Nash has struggled heavily with paranoid schizophrenia throughout his life. He’s been placed in a mental hospital for his schizophrenia after his wife noticed he was showing signs of extreme paranoia and erratic behavior. He even once thought there was a group of people who were conspiring against him to get rid of him.

2. Vincent Van Gogh—Van Gogh’s post-Impressionist painting work continues to make its influence felt in the art world today. He was nothing short of a creative genius who changed the landscape of his field forever.

But Van Gogh suffered from anxiety and mental illness throughout his short life. At one point, Van Gogh cut off a portion of his own ear during a dispute with a friend. He died at the age of 37 from a self-inflicted gunshot wound. He sold only one painting during his lifetime.

3. Ted Kaczynski—If the name Ted Kaczynski doesn’t sound familiar, you’re sure to recognize him by his infamous nickname, The Unabomber. Over the course of nearly 20 years, the Harvard-trained mathematician engaged in a mail bombing spree that killed 3 people and injured 23 others.

But Kaczynski wasn’t just some disgruntled citizen looking for attention. He was truly a genius. At age 16, he was accepted into Harvard University where he received an undergraduate degree, and he later earned a PhD in mathematics at the University of Michigan.

During the 1970s, he became a recluse, living in a cabin with no electricity or running water. That’s when he decided to start his mail bombing campaign after seeing the trees around his home destroyed thanks to development.

4. Friedrich Nietzsche—Nietzsche was a German philosopher who challenged the ideas of Christianity and morals. He believed in questioning all doctrines, no matter how widely accepted they might be. He’s been called the first existentialist, and his philosophy still inspires people today.

Unfortunately, Nietzsche suffered a mental breakdown in 1889 that left him an invalid for the rest of his life. In short, he went insane and never returned back to normal.

5. Tom Harrell—Tom Harrell is considered one of the greatest jazz trumpeters of all time. He composes beautiful, intricate melodies that are so impressive it’s difficult to believe he suffers from intense paranoid schizophrenia. His is a mental illness that institutionalizes most victims, but he’s able to fight through it with his music.

However, as soon as the music stops, Harrell’s schizophrenia kicks back in. He hears voices and has a difficult time figuring out what’s real and what’s going on in his mind. When he was a young adult, the voices in his head told him to walk through a window. And he did, cutting himself up badly while doing so.

It’s difficult to explain why geniuses are so prone to mental illness. Some believe that their tendency to lack great social skills plays a role while others have proposed that having such a powerful, creative mind causes them to process emotions differently than the average person.

Why do you think geniuses are prone to mental illness? Who are some other famous geniuses you’d add to this list?

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Dilla tribute.

Yo. That tribute show was absolutely dope. Kicked it with phatkat. Guilty Simpson. Slum village...milk was there but in the shadows so he was a little tougher to find. The whole Detroit camp is fantastic though. The vibe that was coming off those guys was amazing.

I straight up got the box. Like, the box.

The dilla King of beats box. The one that looks like a sp. yea.

Can't put a photo up right now cuz apple won't let me for some reason.

Also. The homie Pete. Dropped a ensoniq asr on me. The bright red joint. Plugged it in but ain't really got down yet. Once he found out that I was going in for the month of Mae, beats and everything. He insisted I take the machine and do the damn thing.

Back to the dilla show though. Man.

I feel like a better person just being around those guys. So much ill in one place was a thing of beauty. Part of me feels like half of the crowd was not aware what they were in the presence of but aww well. People gonna enjoy the show in their own unique way I suppose.

Kay miyagi was great too. Can tell he has plenty of experience opening up for folks. He had a legit presence to me. Real likeable dude.

When I get home imma try to post these pics for y'all. The drum machines I got.

I don't really want to post the show pics because it was my own little slice of paradise that I don't want to share.

Black milk played us things that y'all won't even hear. Least that's what he told us anyways.

Milks set made us feel like we was in the basement with him. Just vibing to beats.

Y'all should be jealous as all hell!

Like. You really should.

Ive got video footage of black milk playing us mad beats yo. Stoopid.

One day imma loop these shits and just go off on em.

Y'all will never realize anyways.

Thursday, March 31, 2016

soon enough

Just chopped a ''DOORS'' song to shit. Been getting in the zone and getting ready for the creative wave that is Month of Mae.[pt.5] if your counting. Im enjoying being a one man band honestly.

Knowing that I can do it all makes me feel that much more deadly with the arts.

The hardest part of creating is answering the beckon calls of my family lol.

If I can get a solid 45 mins of ''quiet'' time, I can usually get a lot accomplished, be it recording or beats, or even mixing.

May is bike month, and May is when I record my ass entirely off!!

Wednesday, March 30, 2016

Off but on

I hope that I am not in the wrong for liking to make beats that are basically hard to call beats. The overall beat is able to be rapped to, but at first listen it prolly thows cats off...its kind of everwhere at first till you actually ''catch'' the groove.

its in there somewhere, just up to you to find it.

the groove that is.

I always have been one to handle repetitve things, But I have always wanted to shift the idea as far as music is concerned...Hip hop beats. I hate quantize yo, shit takes away all the bonker feelings.

I like to let the drums loop, and then play the samples over the top of the beat like a fake ass piano. Thats how I make beats personally, thats how I let Dali influence me with sampling. I want my stuff to sound emotional and/or uncomfortable. These are the vibes that I feel will ''shake'' one up,
 go against any pattern or feel that the brain has even considered!

Just thought of an ill reference.

The metronome of raindrops........

Now thats a hell of a time sequence right there.

Mastermind gave me a machine..straight sent a drum machine through the mail yo, crazy gift.
Just need to find a power cord for it.

then I got another toy to play with.